Do you ever

feel like your life is spinning out of control and you're just along for the ride, holding on for dear life?

I have felt this way more often than not lately. Everyday life is taking it's toll on me mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. I find myself getting so caught up in what needs to be done that I miss what's happening right now. Lately, I've gotten too caught up in the image I feel I need to uphold. The Mommy who has it all together. (Or at least most of it.) The problem is, that's not me. I don't have it together. I'm just in survival mode. And, I'm extremely disappointed in myself. Defeated. Ashamed. Disgusted. Shall I go on?

And, my babies are suffering because of it.

Am I good Mommy? Yes, I think I am. But, I could be better. I could try harder. My sweet boy asked me no less than 5 times (if not more) to read him a new book this afternoon. He even waited patiently beside my sewing machine for 5 minutes. I never did it. I was caught up in getting my work done. And that, my friends, is a shame. I am ashamed.

What Do They Think of Me?

I got this great idea from another blog I read. The kids really got into it and some of their answers are funny!


1. What is something Mom always says to you?
Jacob: "I love you"
Olivia: "Don't get any more candy!"

2. What makes Mom happy?
Jacob: "When we are good."
Olivia: "When we play outside."

3. What makes Mom sad?
Jacob: "When we hit each other."
Olivia: "When we don't play outside."

4. How does your Mom make you laugh?
Jacob: "She tickles me."
Olivia: "She tickles me."

5. What was your Mom like as a child?
Jacob: "Good."
Olivia: "Like me!"

6. How old is your Mom? (30)
Jacob: "16"
Olivia: "22"

7. How tall is your Mom?
Jacob: "31 inches"
Olivia: "I don't really know. Just tall."

8. What is her favorite thing to do?
Jacob: "Watch TV"
Olivia: "Play on the computer."

9. What does your Mom do when you're not around?
Jacob: "Laundry!"
Olivia: "Drink water"

10. If your Mom becomes famous, what will it be for?
Jacob: "Singing songs"
Olivia: "Cooking"

11. What is your Mom really good at?
Jacob: "Drawing a snowman."
Olivia: "Taking pictures"

12. What is your Mom not very good at?
Jacob: "Building a house" he added "Because that's just really hard to do!"
Olivia: "You spank our butts!"

13. What does your Mom do for a job?
Jacob: "To keep the house clean."
Olivia: "To take us to the duck pond."

14.What is your Mom's favorite food?
Jacob: "Apples and kiwi"
Olivia: "Macaroni and cheese and broccoli"

15.What makes you proud of your Mom?
Jacob: "When she plays soccer with me."
Olivia: "When she swings me."

16. If your Mom were a cartoon character, who would she be?
Jacob: "Bob the Builder"
Olivia: "Cinderella or Sleeping Beauty or Belle or Dora! I can't choose!"

17. What do you and your Mom do together?
Jacob: "Cook brownies."
Olivia: "Dance and cook."

18. How are you and your Mom the same?
Jacob: "We have the same skin."
Olivia: "We are girls."

19. How are you and your Mom different?
Jacob: "We don't weigh the same." Well, isn't that the truth!!
Olivia: "You wear glasses and I don't."

20. How do you know your Mom loves you?
Jacob: "You hug me."
Olivia: "Because we're a family."

21. What does your Mom like most about your dad?
Jacob: "When he hugs you."
Olivia: "He loves you."

22. Where is your Mom's favorite place to go?
Jacob: "To Nana and Papaw's house and read a book the whole way there!"
Olivia: "To the fabric store."

Happy Birthday Jacob!

Olivia's First Day of Preschool

I cried, of course, but Olivia was great! She got out of the car and walked in like she owned the place! She was SOOO excited! I can't wait to pick her up so she can tell me all about it. Our house is WAY too quiet!

Holding her 1st Day of Preschool sign
In her Mommy-made outfit. :o)
With her backpack and lunchbox.




SO excited waiting in car line.
Walking in with Ms. Lindy

I'm a big kid now!

Soooooo, I cried like a baby! But, I made it to the car before I started! WOO!
He was wonderful. No tears. He wasn't upset at all. He was just happy to be there. Which made it a lot easier to leave.

Anyway, here are a few pictures. Olivia says she misses him already. :(

Before school. I plan on making them pose with signs every year until their senior year. :o) I'm sure they'll LOVE that!
Anxiously waiting for everyone else to get ready. Jacob and Daddy Jacob and Mommy

Hugs for little sister before we left. Aww...

Open House

Jacob visited his classroom and met his teacher this afternoon. Her name is Mrs. McFather. As in, "Luke, I am your McFather." hee hee

He starts pre-K tomorrow and he is SO excited! I, on the other hand, don't know how I'll walk him into school and leave him there. I'm sure I'll be a total mess tomorrow! Pray for me... :o)

Here are a couple of pictures I took today. There will be more tomorrow!

Sitting in his desk for the first time. He was SO thrilled to see his name on the table!

Standing in front of his classroom door. There are teddy bears with all of the kids' names on them. And, it says, "Beary happy to see you". Aww...

Happy 3rd Birthday Olivia!